EXPERIENCE! what you get when you did not get what

exams are coming...

2008-07-28T03:40:00.000-07:00

have to start studying man!! my chem is in a mess... really have to fix it. my maths has improved and hope it will be better than last semester:) all my teachers are super lousy now... english is useless, if i pass my maths my teacher will be the last person to thank. my history teacher is a gay and my physics teacher is more or less dead and my chem teacher is like a mad woman. sounds dam sad... haha!! but i will pull through!!

tioman day 3

2008-06-29T06:24:00.000-07:00

day 3 was the most fun day in the whole 4 day trip. but the start of the day is actually very screwed up. we had wake up super early... like 630 or something. so we headed to the dive centre still half asleep. haha. we carried our equipment to the jetty, got on the dive boat and headed for the marine park. we had to rig up our equipment on the boat. it was really messy as the boat was rather small and we had to take turns to rig up. but all was good, once we reached marine park, we dived in.

at marine park, the fishes were a lot bigger than at the jetty of salang. the average size of a fish would be about 1 and half times of my hand. however, the marine park was rather disappointing. we hardly saw any interesting things. i think it was becuase there were too many people cramped into a small area. and becuase the sec2s were idiots, kicking sand and scaring all the fishes away. so we hardly saw anything. but there were sucker fish in the marine park and it was super funny. they kept eating some residue from the surface of our air tanks. sometimes they swam between our legs and we had a very ticklish sensations. but the marine park was a real bummer!

headed back to tioman and i think the boat went in a wrong direction. so it took a lot longer to reach salang. and when we got back... this was when most of the things started to get rather screwed up. we rushed back for breakfast when it was almost 12. finished "breakfast" at about 1230. went back to the dive centre, brought our equipment to jetty. and the intructors were like super retarded. scolding us for no reason and hurrying us when they are slower than us. i was like WTH!! we went to the jetty to rig up, and we waited like 2 dam hours for the speed boat to arrive. we were so dam pissed la!!! hurry us just to wait for the speed boat. but the dive was not bad la. we saw a lot of things. a grooper half my size, sea snake and lots of corals and fishes. but the juniors were super irritating. keep squeezing past us when we are suppose to be infront. i wanted to kick their faces.

after the dive we headed back, and this was when the fun really started!! yeah baby!! after our lunch, we decided go fishing:) we rented 2 rods and went to the jetty fo fish. wilson and tin jin caught a fish each. me and mathew caught nothing. haha.

the main highlight after the fishing will the volleyball:) we played with some church people there. in the first game... we were thrashed... literally thrashed. the score was like 11-3 or something. haha!! but all was good:) we practiced and practiced. and we kept getting better and better. my team was made of mathew, wilson, tin jun, me and some others who come go. after awhile... we totally thrashed the church people:) woooo!!! we were playing like 11-5, 11-3, 11-8. haha!! we totally owned them!

after awhile our hands were really sore. especially when i hit the ball and it hits my veins.... super pain. so we decided to play a guy's sport. RUGBY!! WOOO!! it was really choatic, i did not even know wheather it is my friend ormy opponent who is tackling me. once 4 people tryied to take me down, i tried to keep the ball but ended up with a mouthful of sand. haha! but all was good. i really had an advantage over my friends becuase i am quite agile. i could dodge a few people before bones and flesh met. haha

after rugby it was like 10+ so we headed back for a shower. this part is the most hardcore part! haha. at about 12 my friends and my seniors sneaked out with the instructors to the bar. all my friends had a B-52!! woooo. then i shared a graveyard with mathew. he was super high after that. LOL. he could not even walk straight. greg also could not. and another felix(not me) tried to feed a cat beer. lol!! when people get drunk they really do very stupid things. haha!!

verbal constipation!

2008-06-27T09:35:00.001-07:00

haha!! yup thats right. i am really feeling very mixed up now.... i am like suffocating. like a bottle of coke that was shaken and not opened!! i want to explode but i cant! i need help! there are so many thing that are holding me back and there so many things i want to do. i am caught between so many things!! i want to persue my interest, i want fulfill my goals, i want study, i want to do so many things and my parents are nagging me out of my mind!! i am seriously gonna blow real soon!!

i want to yell my heart out to the world now!!! sick of this life of bottling everything up!! really like verbal constipation!! haha. i think i am losing it.

tioman day2

2008-06-26T01:34:00.000-07:00

i have been really really busy lately. i have been pursueing a lot things i wanted to do for a long time:) and now i am actually doing them!! i can hardly find the time to blog these days...

anyway on day2, we woke up at about 8 or so... had breakfast. it was not elegant or extravagant in anyway, it was really modest. i loved it though. i thought it gave a special touch to the kumpung scenery. wilson, mathew, tin jin and myself had breakfast with the DM himself... he kept on suaning us la.. haha. but it was alright la. he is actually a very nice guy:) *that only applies outside school* after breakfast, we went for our first dive. it will be our real first dive in the sea with our air tanks and sea water:)

we gathered outside the dive centre and settled our equipment. rigged up our air tanks and regulator to the BC (buouyancy conpensator) and went for our first shore dive. we walked to the far left of salang where it was less rocky. but the walk was a killer!! 20kg!! this first dive is actually for doing our drills in the sea. we did see a lot of fishes though. they were quite small and some swam past my mask. when we were doing our drills was when our friend jing han got transfered out of our group. he was not fast enough and had to be transfered to another group. we completed our mask clearing, regulator recovery, buouyancy test and buddy aid. oh i also remember... everyone suffered coral cuts except me:) that was becuase my friends were retarded enough to swim over corals!! haha. lucky i did not go first:)

headed back for lunch. the second dive was actually a disapointment. that becuase we went to a depth of only 4m if i am not mistaken... and we were kneeling on the ground for more than half the time. if you compared the 3rd dive to the 2nd... it would be heaven and earth. seriously!!

after lunch, we rigged up at the dive centre again and we head to the far left again... each time we walked... it seemed farther and farther, haha. but all was worth it. this time we went actual hardcore diving. we saw many many different types of corals. they were all so beautiful. we also saw trigger fishes, which were very dangerous, if provoked. we also saw the clown fish and sea anemone. it was really very nice. we also saw scallops, the shells were like bigger than my palms. haha!! super big. i could not remember everything we saw... but all was great!! we dived onto a platform like thingy. we rested there for 5-10 mins and dove back. it was the first time i did the giant step.

went back for a break. was exhausted already... the last dive was at the jetty:) you may think that there is nothing to see in under the concrete pavement you walk on. but you are wrong... there were so many fishes there!! there were so many corals on the pillars of the jetty. the water under the jetty was reall clear. that was because there was not much sand to kick. haha! and we went almost as deep as 15m. i got cut by corals this time... haha. to all of us got cuts now. he dove back to shore and trugded our way back to the dive centre with the equipment.

had dinner which was very standard... haha. we wanted to play volleyball but we did not dare to ask the people who were playing...lol. we wandered around salang but it was very spooky, especially when they do not have any street lamps. so we went back to our room after awhile. had an early night for the next day would be very long. we had to wake up and report at dive centre at 630. haha. super early dive!!

tioman!! day 1

2008-06-13T09:40:00.000-07:00

the trip was the BEST holiday i ever had!! i did so many things i wanted! the first was actually not very exciting as most of the day was spent travelling. but me and tin jun watched borat on his i pod:) dam funny! i like the part where he goes into some hotel acting like a nigga. haha! "whats up with, me and my friend azamat want to park our black asses here for the night. we are 2 bros, no hoes." WTF!! dam retarded and funny! slept a bit on the coach ride. too quite a lot of pics:) but i dont know how to post them on the blog. haha. when friends teach me i will post them.

after we cleared customs, we headed for mersing. when we went for our lunch. RAMILY BURGER!! WOAOAHH!! haha. i love those burgers. my favourite is beef cheese and egg. it was rather rushy as everyone was ordering ramily, so i had to eat quickly as the dive boat just reached the jetty. we got on the dive boat and it was rather small to be considered a ferry becuase it could only fit 20-30 people. for the first 30mins we were briefed and split into our spesific groups. and i am in the best group:) by what melvin calls us. haha. i my group was mathew, wilson, tin jun, greg and dion. jing han was kicked out into another group becuase he was slowing the team down. haha. but he is a nice guy la:) mathew is really dam funny.

after the briefing we went to the deck to sun tan!! WOOH! now i am super black. haha. but my tighs are dam fare. really disgusting. gonna go swimming tomorrow to even out the tan a bit. we sun tanned for like 3 hours. haha. mathew, sherman and i were all as red as lobsters. all of us had very bad sun burns. but sherman tio the most. haha. he fell asleep half way and he got burnt both on the front and the back. lol. poor thing sia. it was really hard for him to sleep. mathew also quite bad, mine was the most mild. but my shoulders were really pain. especially when i put on my tight wet suit. luckly miss menon brought aloe vera. haha. we used a lot. thank you:) i think we used almost half the bottle la. me and mathew. haha.

when we reached tioman it was suppose to be lunch. and the food took forever to come.... and the food there also sucked. but we had little chioce we were starving. lol. and the standard meal was, sotong, fish, omellete, soup and if you are lucky, chicken. dam sad. but i quite enjoyed it:) i felt like i was in survivor. haha. me and my friends really lived like kung pong people and it was really fun. never lived like that before. we walked around bare feet and without shirts.

after lunch we had our first dive. i dont really call it a dive... it was just snokeling. so all we did was practice our suface dive. i got it quite quickly and so did my team. but my teacher miss menon could not dive. haha. she could not sink. lol. the instructor had to push her down. haha. so we learnt how to do shore diving too. we picked less rocky shore and it was really very tiring to walk with all the equipment strapped to you. it weighed like 20kg. plus you are super tired already. haha. but all was worth it for what we saw underwater. it was really nice:)

dinner was special because it was not provided. so we ordered our food. all of us had satay, stingray ( the best very fresh!) and RAMILY!! haha. we were all very full after that. so we decided to walk a little and explore the island. so we followed the road. half way it was really freaky becuase there were no lights and we decided to turn back. chickens. haha. we had an early night that day.

i will blog more about day 2, 3 and 4 another day. my dad is nagging at me now... sian sia. haha. thanks for reading

scuba!

2008-06-07T15:48:00.000-07:00

just finished my scuba training quite long ago:) it was really fun. but the place was really run down. the pool was so dirty the visibility is like 1 metre only. haha. plus no matter where you look, you will see a dead insect. it was really distgusting. but all was good. and my intructor, melvin, was really funny! he has tattoos all over his body and is a tattoo artist. the jokes he crack are dam funny. especially the one about how to shit and vomit in the sea. haha. suppose to be going for a dinner with all scuba divers next week:)

the training was not realyl physically demanding... but somehow my body was exhausted. i have no idea why. and i was so tired when i got back after training, i still had to organise an outing for my MC class. and only 8 people turned up. haha. but it was fun la:) thanks for coming all of you:)
we watched kung fu panda, and i watched it for the second time already... so i was quite bored in the theatre. went to bk for dinner after bren left for tennis training. and paul did not eat dinner la! i seriously think he is on diet, especially after seeing the resemblence between him and kung fu panda. haha:)

BUSY BUSY!

2008-06-04T04:51:00.000-07:00

haha... as my previous post said... would be really busy. done a lot of things recently. watch indiana jones and narnia already:) i would say i prefer narnia. i dont really like the idea of space ships and aliens. it is really wierd.... wonder what steven spielberg was doing.. haha. but i was still quite surprised by harrison ford. he was super cool! 60+ already still can do so many stunts. but then again... if you conpared them to the previous indiana jones, he was much better then. but he still rocks! did not get much narnia at first... i did not watch the previous movie. after awhile the story became quite simple.

and in the end... we did not go to play soccer at cage. thanks to SOME guy who would book the court. ao we went to AMK to watch a movie. watched narnia. it good. then i was suppose to sleep over at juden's house. then my parents did not allow... anyway i am over all those mixed feelings. haha

need some soul searching

2008-05-29T19:41:00.000-07:00

i am seriously lost now... i dont know what i want or what i should do. this suks. there sooo many things i want to do and so many i should do and i just feel lost. i think i really need some soul searching and straighten out my thoughts. dam i need help...

hope i can get my mind set right during soccer today... going cage with my buddies. it will be my first time playing there. and i will be wearing studds. i hate playing with studds... dam scary. had a very bad experience when i was young. last time i went to a field to play soccer. there were adults there so i just watched. they wear playing with studds of cause. and some guy accidentally kicked another guy in the knee. the poor guy had a studd print in his knee. the mark was like half a cm deep. i think there was a hole in his knee cap. dam sick.... now i got phobia to play with studds. haha

anyway, i just hope i will find that special someone soon:) cause i am losing myself... haha

holidays... BUSY

2008-05-28T21:22:00.000-07:00

haha.... just got back from my run. as you all know i am training for my biathalon. i am very far from my target. anyway i am eating my brunch now. i am a health freak now. haha. i is just cheese, bread, biskets and milk. i will be making some salad later:)

ok:) back with my salad. oinions, tomatoes and carrots with lemon. it really nice and light. try it if you are free. it is really refreshing. if you always think that onions are very stingy... after adding lemon juice.... it changes the whole texture of the piercing lemon.

anyway, leon is coming over to let him try my salad:) he is my best buddy. he just got back from australia. i still dont know where he went though. haha. should be playing soccer later or breakdance with leon:)

i have to do some work today. my dad has been nagging at me from the start of the holidays... haha. probably tidy my table first. it is so cluttered you can hardly write on the table.

today's outing is cancelled. haha. thats why sometimes i hate being the organiser. you work the hardest and sometimes nothing comes back... haha. sometimes there are people who also dont really appreciate your hard work.

going for dinner later this evening though.my aunt from malaysia is coming to singapore and then fly to australia. guess what... my bro got permisssion to book out of army early for the dinner. YEES! sup bro! but he has to book in again before 9 or somethin. haha. at least he gets a very nice meal.

today will be very busy... better get started:) bye all!

fuk you

2008-05-28T07:21:00.001-07:00

fuk you all man! i am sick of all this SH!T. you guys are dam irritating. you guys know who you are! and it comes a point where SORRY just dont cut it.
everytime you screw up you say SORRY. like what thadd said. there comes a point where you devalue your words till they so not seem sincere at all! fuk you man i am sick you.
if you are reading this post, i advise you to rethink all you have done and i will set you a home task! count the number of sorries you say each day. also you think very funny ah... i talkin on phone you come ji siao. fuk man. get a life. you better go wake up your idea man. now i understand you what others say when i consider you my best friend. WAKE UP YOUR IDEA!

holidays are here!

2008-05-26T23:02:00.000-07:00

just got back from lunch with my parents. they are going to bank to see the banker... got some investment thingy. wanted to go actually but felt very lazy. haha:) nicer to slack at home. i am really tired now... i ran the biathalon route before lunch.

this holidays will be my most meaningful and productive holiday ever! i am gonna do a lot of things. a lot of training, a lot of enjoyment and a bit a studying. haha

YES! i am selected for scuba diving this year! Wooo! anyway it is from 9-12 june. have a theory lesson this coming mon. i havent scuba dived before... it would be my first time:) everything should go fine la... i am a good swimmer. just hope i will become the next steve irwin. haha. my school has a lot of retards who got potential to be the next steve. haha. my school full of retards.

there are a lot of things i want to do this holidays. i am currently training for my biathalon coming this july. i also want to pick up a lot of other activities. like singing, breakdancing and playing the guitar. i also need to catch up with my studies. haha. that is the part i dont like.

MC and CC

2008-05-24T18:29:00.000-07:00

it is really sad but i have to say good bye to all you people... the moments we had together were the best moments in my life. and i will miss you all. all good things come to an end...

to my MC pals, yesterday was great! thanks for going for dinner last night. it was really fun playing truth or dare with you all, kim, elizabeth, razor and abigail. it was really fun. sorry i pang sei for the last one. it was just so wrong la. haha.

my best bro dillion, you have always helped me through the rough patches of my life. it is now my turn to help you. thanks for everything man.

exploding emotions

2008-05-22T09:49:00.000-07:00

to all my readers,
have you ever had this feelin in your life where you have soooo many emotions bottled up within yourself and you dont know how to express it. sometimes you feel like screaming out the lyrics of songs, punchin some guy in the face, or just breaking down and cry. this week has been a very hectic week for me... i have been neglecting my break dancing and my body is like telling me the all the bottled up emotion is distroying my body. all my muscles are protesting when ever i exert them. they used to be able to take a lot of crap. LOL. i get the feeling that my life is gonna end this week. all my best buds will be so far from me after this fri and sat. but i still do have some great friends who are my neighbours. however sometimes you guys have to set your priorities right man!

anyway i really hate saying good bye. it like saying bye to happiness as you know only sorrow would follow. so it is really hard for me... this song is really expressing my emotions now. me against the world by simple plan. if were not the time now... i would be screaming out the lyrics! haha.

a very sad week

2008-05-22T08:53:00.000-07:00

dam! this is the week where my CC and MC ends. the graduation is later today and tomorrow.
i will be missing all you guys man! you have made my life so much brighter and i dont know how i will survive without you all. school life sux now man. i hate it actually.

anyway i want to tell you guys how much i miss you all and you guys have been GREAT! we must keep in touch:)

my results are like crap now. will be workin on them this holidays... hope i do actually study. lol

BORAT ROCKS!
haha. i am totally mad about him. i may even speak like him for my CC graudation ceremony:) i wonder why still so many people still dont know him... go check him out man! on youtube. IT IS A MUST!!

to my friends at CC, you guys rock man! namely," koko jo, firdaus, haikal, ben chua and many more!" rock on! later today is our graduation. dam sad sia. must keep in touch.

i am saying good bye to soo many people this week... my dear marist friends joshua. you have been a great buddy man! and i still wonder how you can run and never pant. good luck with life bro. and dont spoil your eyes by looking out of the window at the school oppersite your house. lol. make sure you visit us at the soccer court! keep rockin:)

to my newest bro, dillion, from MC. how doing man? guess it kinda suks now. same here... hehe. you are not alone. just try to remain positive:) this sat is gonna suk. graduation. i will miss you lot man! should go for a class outing soon... maybe we can organise:)

philosophy (now a part of my life)

2008-05-20T23:45:00.001-07:00

i am a very philosophical person. my favourate philosophical figures are plato and aristotle. you should check them out:) those quites help you get along with life.

after reading quotes from very brilliant people... i have come out with some of mine. lol. i made them based on my life experience and what others said. a large part which influenced me to turn philosophical is becuase of MIND CHAMPS! MC is just great. especially my trainer thaddeus. to me, he is the beat trainer. anyway my quote about my life so far is, " the limiting factor of life is the way we think."

it is really hard to explain how i came to this conclusion. *read only if you are interested about philsophy* the main factors are, the law attraction, my current life situation and what some of my trainers say:)

fuk you all!

2008-05-19T06:46:00.000-07:00

shitty day! played soccer this morning at 9. work up at 8.58.
was super groggy this morning. played like crap... keeping sucked keeping and dribbling.
first we played 4 v 4. them some idiots came to play with us. some fukin bastards play until dam rough. some bugger slammed his arm into my chest. i kick his ass ah!

after soccer... i was dam tired. my body is like falling apart now. my body is protesting against break dancing now. fukin sian...

bad day.... HANGOVER!

2008-05-17T08:39:00.000-07:00

dam! 6 hours of sleep. went for MC....
thadd was not there. he is in japan. GOOD LUCK with the 100km run and chasing japanese gals!:) hehe

anyway back to all the SH!T.
the stand in trainer, kelvin was no where near as good as thaddeus la! he was dam boring...
plus i had dam bad hangover symtoms. FUK! i was really feeling like crap. feeling like crap now too...... hope tomorrow will be better

MC i will miss you guys... i really dont want it to end. duno wheather i will breakdown during graduation ceremony... love you people a lot!

B52s!

2008-05-17T08:20:00.000-07:00

hey:)!
bro just came out of the army and he is takin me to a pub for a drink!
it is a place called timbre or somethin

so we meet at city hall and walked towards timbre
on the way there passed by esplanade unpass. saw a few cool breakers:)
i gonna learn some lockin! dam cool la!
i think radical force was there! they were doing things like flares and wind mills. dam power!

then i was talkin to him abour what i know about breakin... 3, 4, 5, 6, 7 step. cc and turtle i am still very noob so dont bother with me. lol

once we were there, we had to wait dam long a table la. i was quite pissed. we had to wait for like 1 hour.... once we had a table, we ordered drinks. i had a edinberg beer. then we ordered shooters. a dozen of b 52s:) hehe. some indian guys was gave us the shocked look when the waitress served us the drinks. LOL.

so we talked about a lot of personal stuff. i finished like almost one pint of beer and 5 shots of b52. the b52 was dam fringing nice la! you all MUST try! the live band there was incredible. they played many tunes from jonus bros, red hot chilli peppers and many GREAT tracks! thanks guys:)

so after my 5th shot... i was rather HIGH already... lol. it was a great outing bro! thanks